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[It really does, sob. She didn't do it Quistis, honest!]

Um. Yeah? I think so? Maybe not as bad as Squall, but.. yeah.

[Maybe she should just apologize now just in case.]

Is everything okay?

I just wanted to clarify that before I began, that is all.

[ Well, Quistis? Begin. Stop stalling! ]

Oh. Well I haven't forgotten? Whatever it is, it's safe with me!
So what's on your mind?

I just wanted to inform you that I have begun seeing someone.
That is all.

What? You can't just say something like that and then leave it! You've got to tell me more!

[ Delayed like, thirty minutes: ]

Like what?

[Geeze, she's fidgety the whole half an hour too.]

What do you mean like what? Like who it is! What he's like! Stuff like that!

His name is Malik Caesar.
He also works at the LEU.
Where he is from, he was working as a military instructor for some time and then began to travel the world.
Discussing that is actually how we hit it off.

I knew you were lying about it being completely platonic with your partner.
Way to go for it though, that's awesome! Congrats!
And you still haven't told me if he's hot.

[Several minutes later.]

And when do I get to meet him?

Things were complicated. I did not think they would work out.
I didn't want to say anything.
I believe if you are that interested, you'll find his default image on the contact list.
And we are keeping it casual. Neither of us are in a rush for anything serious.

[ Half past never o'clock sounds good to her! ]

Complicated. Of course.
I'm sure you had your reasons it's okay
[This time, but next time is another matter.
Her response after that is slightly delayed, because she has to look him up.]
So that's the type you like?
I don't see why not things are kind of weird right now, so why not have fun?
But it doesn't get you out of introducing us.

[Yeah, there's no way she's going to let this go so easy.]

The LEU had a no interoffice dating policy up until recently.
I had a talk with my superior and there was a change in policy. All we had to do was each fill out a form. I apologized, her forgave me and it's... nice?

[ She wonders if that's all because it's not like Rinoa to have so little to say. ]

What do you mean "that's the type" I like? [ That could mean so many things... ]
There will be an introduction at some point.
We're just keeping it on the down-low. Partially because of the LEU's policy and the potential that we still could be dismissed if they deem our relationship to be getting in the way of our work or if there is preferential treatment.
It's just very new for both of us.
We're comfortable with one another, but...
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I hope you understand that it's just something neither of us are too certain about.
So in time, yes. Of course.

[ She'll try, of course! ]

Policies like that are silly.
Aren't forbidden things sometimes more attractive? Because knowing you can't have it can make you want it even more.
I'm glad it's working out for you!

[There are some things with Quistis that just shouldn't be pushed. Rinoa can be at least kind of sensible when she tries to be.]

I've always wondered. So what do you like about him. The beard? I'm curious.
[Because he looks a little old in Rinoa's eyes just saying.]
Good! There'd better be or I'll just find him and introduce myself.
[Enjoy that mental image Quistis, because surely nothing could go wrong in that scenario.]

Your job seems really picky. How can you stand it? I think I'd go crazy following all of those rules all the time.
It's a new relationship, it's not supposed to be certain yet! That'd ruin all the fun!

We've already discussed this and my feelings on them remain the same despite the fact that it is a policy that briefly made me very unhappy.
Is that the case? I want him just as much as I did before.
I mean I don't like him any more or any less.

[ That phrasing. Freudian slip? Perhaps. ]

I don't really have a type, I don't think? Although I do admittedly find myself drawn to men of a similar build to him.
He is very kind and compassionate but also strong.
He isn't someone who allows that kindness and compassion to be a weakness.
Though I've not seen him fight, I believe he's very skilled. The way he talks about his occupation is...
I can appreciate it on an intimate level. [ He only looks like thirty-ish, right? ]
And it won't come to that, I'm certain.

I suppose I like rules.
I like having an outline to follow. I like certainty.
So I suppose that's why I don't really find myself in relationships.
Trusting someone not to hurt you...
That's very difficult.

[ Just like her to think too much and make this into something depressing. ]

I know. That doesn't mean I have to like them!
I don't see why not?
Stuff like this just takes time sometimes, that's all.

[One thread with her thinking about Quistis thinking about sex is enough thanks.]

What're you talking about? That's totally a type!
Having a type of guy you like isn't a bad thing. It's just a thing.
Like liking one type of book over another. Everyone has preferences!
We'll see~

Rules aren't always bad.
They just seem to get in the way a lot.
I guess I just like having lots of freedom?
I guess I know what you mean, but worrying about what could happen isn't going to help.
Then you'll just end up having lots of regrets because you didn't reach out when you had the chance.

[They're good at waxing philosophical at each other aren't they.]

I know. I didn't like them, either. There's room now, though.
Anyway, that's...
I don't know?
I do not date much. I've never really been in a relationship.
I've always been too busy with working.

And did you just refer to my [ What to call it? She lets that hang for a few minutes before continuing this text. ]
Significant other like he is a genre of fiction?
...non-fiction, I suppose. Reference book.
Since that's what I like. [ That's as good as admitting to her having a type as you'll ever get. ]

I suppose I like a bit of both. In different areas.
Who dislikes rules when they suit them, after all?
Too much freedom makes me nervous.
Too many options.
You're right, but...
I don't know.
For now, I feel better than I have in a very long time.
He trusts me just as much to not hurt him. The chance of it is equal.
With no risk, there's no reward, right?

[ Which is her way of relenting. That and the fact that she hasn't ended this relationship yet. ]

It seems to have worked out at least, so it's not that bad.
Well you can have time now!
So you should just enjoy yourself! Try new things, remember?

I almost said that it was like thinking apples tasted better than oranges, but I changed my mind.
[That is to say, yes she did just compare him to a fiction genre.]
Seriously? I guess I can't say I'm surprised.
It seems about right. I think it suits you. [She doesn't have to admit it when Rinoa already knows the truth.]

You make good points too often. You should stop that.
I like having freedom!
Maybe there are too many choices sometimes, but they're my choices to make!
If I make the wrong ones the only one I can blame then is myself.
How do you make your relationship sound so sensible and so cute at the same time??
That's right. There might be no guarantees for tomorrow, but that doesn't mean we should avoid taking chances!

Apples do taste better than oranges, though.
Anyway, I suppose that he's... I don't know. A reference book I might pick secondary then after reading five pages I realize it's superior to the one I'd intended on.
If that makes sense.

[ That's rather high praise, isn't it? She really must like him. ]

Why would I stop making good points? That seems like a silly thing to stop doing.
And that's true enough. I know that making the wrong choice sometimes happens and that sometimes the right choice eventually turns into the wrong one or just... not what you expected. But I am beginning to accept that it's alright for that to happen.
It is sensible. I'm not sure I'd call either of us or what is between us "cute" but I'd like to think we make an attractive couple?
I think the fact that there are no guarantees for tomorrow means that you should take chances more frequently. What's the point of living if you wait so long your chances have passed up? Or something happens and you can't take that leap?
That is why I am with him. I know that I'd regret it my entire life if I missed my chance with him, even if it only lasts a little while.

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I think they're both great! It's just that sometimes you want an apple and sometimes an orange.
So you were looking at two guys and then picked one of them? You go Quistis!

[That's probably not what she was supposed to get out of that was it.]

Hey there can be too much of a good thing so it totally makes sense.
Well yeah, of course! If we didn't make mistakes then we'd never grow as people!
I think sometimes what we learn from screwing up defines us more than the things we get right. Does that make sense?
You might be an attractive couple, but that doesn't mean your relationship can't be cute.
Now if only we could get Squall thinking like that more often. I should give him a little credit I guess, he is getting better.
Well, however long it lasts I'm happy you had the chance!

I suppose that makes sense.
Although in this scenario I think a more apt comparison would be different variations of apples. I don't think I'm one to stray too far from what I favor. [ Give it a few months, though. She'll be pretty open to oranges -- or lemons, maybe. A lemon seems more suited to Seifer. ]
And I didn't say that!
It certainly wasn't the case! [ Yet she's being so defensive, hm... ]

It does make sense to me.
Although I feel I should argue that, I'm not going to. I still wouldn't call what he and I have "cute", though. [ No, it's actually bordering adorable. You know, in a surprisingly normal, functional sort of way. ]
He has changed a lot, even if it does not appear to be the case. It's a thousand subtle things. He's much more open and willing.
As for the sentiment, I appreciate it. I'm glad I've been afforded this chance, as well.

Even I can make sense sometimes. :P
I don't know enough about apples to name different types like that, but I guess you have a point.
But if you always get the same thing without trying anything new you might miss out on something you like even better than apples! Maybe peaches are your favoritest fruit in the whole world! If all you ate was apples you'd never know!
[Wait, where is she even going with this metaphor anymore? Honestly Rinoa has no idea.]
Really? Because that's what it sounded like to me.
[OH.]
More than two? I didn't know you were a player!
[Please Quistis, keep giving her the wrong impression. It can only get worse.]

You can deny it all you want, but it's totally cute. C-U-T-E.
I know he has, I just wish he'd be a little more open sometimes. I know that's asking a lot, but...
I don't know.
Maybe they were right and this place isn't so bad after all.

Quite a shocking revelation, that is.
Well, it doesn't have to be apples. Different variations in general is what I meant.
I have tried a variety of fruits, but I'd much rather not delve further into this metaphor or my love life, current or prior. [ This is for the better, isn't it. Quistis's taste in men is... well, it's interesting, isn't it? ]
It's not like that, Rinoa. I was interested in someone else, but
I suppose that was just a crush. I couldn't see myself really being involved with him.

Cute...
That's just not something I ever considered myself to be.
I think that he's changing. Squall's already changed. I imagine he'll always be closed off, but given time I think that he'll only change more and for the better.
I do not think this place is all that bad. I'm very grateful to know the people I've met here.

Meanie. :P
Okay okay. Just don't get so caught up on liking apples that you never eat an orange ever again.
Probably a good idea, this conversation is getting kind of weird.
[Though not half so weird as a certain someone who might be a gorilla.]
I guess that makes sense. I've never really thought of you as the crush type, but I guess it's something everyone goes through. So kind of like crushing on someone in a movie but different?

It's okay! People who are too aware of their cuteness can be kind of annoying sometimes if they try to force being cute.
of course i wouldn't want Squall to change too much, then he wouldn't be Squall anymore! That's the last thing I want. Some things I wouldn't trade for anything. Like the way he frowns so seriously when playing triple triad even though it's just a game. Or like how sometimes if I'm careful I can see his eyes soften as he watches you guys, because even though he doesn't really show it very well he really cares about all of you a lot.
For such a tough guy he can be pretty cute.
[Okay gushing about crush over for now.]
It'd be a lot scarier if you weren't here.

There's nothing wrong with getting caught up in apples. Who knows? I could be a one apple only kind of woman. [ She likes him enough that she could see a future between the two of them beyond some casual relationship. Just because it was casual doesn't mean it couldn't last, right? Regardless, this is getting weird. Er. Weirder. ]
I suppose. It was more like finding something in common with them, getting along with them, finding them attractive but... not pursuing anything.

He's an interesting man, that's for certain. I suppose we both get along because of our awkwardness and antisocial behavior.
I think that he shows the best parts of himself when he's with you.
I'd like to bring that out in someone, someday.

I'm glad that you are here, as well.

There's a difference between being a one apple person and only choosing apples without trying any other kind of fruit.
[This conversation is rather surreal. Who started this metaphor again? Oh right, she did. That explains everything.]
Maybe not quite like a movie star then, but I know what you mean.

Sounds about right to me! Though you're not as antisocial as he is. If you were I'd have to find a different dinner buddy.
[She could probably drag him into trying restaurants with her too, but that's not the point.]
You really think so?
I'm sure you will! I know I fight better when you're around. Does that count?
[Because she doesn't want to look like a complete loser in comparison.]

Is it weird to wish everyone else was here too?

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lmao

this thread is already priceless

all downhill from here

snowballing is the best is cool

is that what they call it........

idk but it seemed like a good word to use at the time

i'm going to say "yes".

oh good glad you approve

we're in sync

two halves etc etc

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