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Policies like that are silly.
Aren't forbidden things sometimes more attractive? Because knowing you can't have it can make you want it even more.
I'm glad it's working out for you!

[There are some things with Quistis that just shouldn't be pushed. Rinoa can be at least kind of sensible when she tries to be.]

I've always wondered. So what do you like about him. The beard? I'm curious.
[Because he looks a little old in Rinoa's eyes just saying.]
Good! There'd better be or I'll just find him and introduce myself.
[Enjoy that mental image Quistis, because surely nothing could go wrong in that scenario.]

Your job seems really picky. How can you stand it? I think I'd go crazy following all of those rules all the time.
It's a new relationship, it's not supposed to be certain yet! That'd ruin all the fun!

We've already discussed this and my feelings on them remain the same despite the fact that it is a policy that briefly made me very unhappy.
Is that the case? I want him just as much as I did before.
I mean I don't like him any more or any less.

[ That phrasing. Freudian slip? Perhaps. ]

I don't really have a type, I don't think? Although I do admittedly find myself drawn to men of a similar build to him.
He is very kind and compassionate but also strong.
He isn't someone who allows that kindness and compassion to be a weakness.
Though I've not seen him fight, I believe he's very skilled. The way he talks about his occupation is...
I can appreciate it on an intimate level. [ He only looks like thirty-ish, right? ]
And it won't come to that, I'm certain.

I suppose I like rules.
I like having an outline to follow. I like certainty.
So I suppose that's why I don't really find myself in relationships.
Trusting someone not to hurt you...
That's very difficult.

[ Just like her to think too much and make this into something depressing. ]

I know. That doesn't mean I have to like them!
I don't see why not?
Stuff like this just takes time sometimes, that's all.

[One thread with her thinking about Quistis thinking about sex is enough thanks.]

What're you talking about? That's totally a type!
Having a type of guy you like isn't a bad thing. It's just a thing.
Like liking one type of book over another. Everyone has preferences!
We'll see~

Rules aren't always bad.
They just seem to get in the way a lot.
I guess I just like having lots of freedom?
I guess I know what you mean, but worrying about what could happen isn't going to help.
Then you'll just end up having lots of regrets because you didn't reach out when you had the chance.

[They're good at waxing philosophical at each other aren't they.]

I know. I didn't like them, either. There's room now, though.
Anyway, that's...
I don't know?
I do not date much. I've never really been in a relationship.
I've always been too busy with working.

And did you just refer to my [ What to call it? She lets that hang for a few minutes before continuing this text. ]
Significant other like he is a genre of fiction?
...non-fiction, I suppose. Reference book.
Since that's what I like. [ That's as good as admitting to her having a type as you'll ever get. ]

I suppose I like a bit of both. In different areas.
Who dislikes rules when they suit them, after all?
Too much freedom makes me nervous.
Too many options.
You're right, but...
I don't know.
For now, I feel better than I have in a very long time.
He trusts me just as much to not hurt him. The chance of it is equal.
With no risk, there's no reward, right?

[ Which is her way of relenting. That and the fact that she hasn't ended this relationship yet. ]

It seems to have worked out at least, so it's not that bad.
Well you can have time now!
So you should just enjoy yourself! Try new things, remember?

I almost said that it was like thinking apples tasted better than oranges, but I changed my mind.
[That is to say, yes she did just compare him to a fiction genre.]
Seriously? I guess I can't say I'm surprised.
It seems about right. I think it suits you. [She doesn't have to admit it when Rinoa already knows the truth.]

You make good points too often. You should stop that.
I like having freedom!
Maybe there are too many choices sometimes, but they're my choices to make!
If I make the wrong ones the only one I can blame then is myself.
How do you make your relationship sound so sensible and so cute at the same time??
That's right. There might be no guarantees for tomorrow, but that doesn't mean we should avoid taking chances!

Apples do taste better than oranges, though.
Anyway, I suppose that he's... I don't know. A reference book I might pick secondary then after reading five pages I realize it's superior to the one I'd intended on.
If that makes sense.

[ That's rather high praise, isn't it? She really must like him. ]

Why would I stop making good points? That seems like a silly thing to stop doing.
And that's true enough. I know that making the wrong choice sometimes happens and that sometimes the right choice eventually turns into the wrong one or just... not what you expected. But I am beginning to accept that it's alright for that to happen.
It is sensible. I'm not sure I'd call either of us or what is between us "cute" but I'd like to think we make an attractive couple?
I think the fact that there are no guarantees for tomorrow means that you should take chances more frequently. What's the point of living if you wait so long your chances have passed up? Or something happens and you can't take that leap?
That is why I am with him. I know that I'd regret it my entire life if I missed my chance with him, even if it only lasts a little while.

Edited 2013-12-23 12:15 (UTC)

I think they're both great! It's just that sometimes you want an apple and sometimes an orange.
So you were looking at two guys and then picked one of them? You go Quistis!

[That's probably not what she was supposed to get out of that was it.]

Hey there can be too much of a good thing so it totally makes sense.
Well yeah, of course! If we didn't make mistakes then we'd never grow as people!
I think sometimes what we learn from screwing up defines us more than the things we get right. Does that make sense?
You might be an attractive couple, but that doesn't mean your relationship can't be cute.
Now if only we could get Squall thinking like that more often. I should give him a little credit I guess, he is getting better.
Well, however long it lasts I'm happy you had the chance!

I suppose that makes sense.
Although in this scenario I think a more apt comparison would be different variations of apples. I don't think I'm one to stray too far from what I favor. [ Give it a few months, though. She'll be pretty open to oranges -- or lemons, maybe. A lemon seems more suited to Seifer. ]
And I didn't say that!
It certainly wasn't the case! [ Yet she's being so defensive, hm... ]

It does make sense to me.
Although I feel I should argue that, I'm not going to. I still wouldn't call what he and I have "cute", though. [ No, it's actually bordering adorable. You know, in a surprisingly normal, functional sort of way. ]
He has changed a lot, even if it does not appear to be the case. It's a thousand subtle things. He's much more open and willing.
As for the sentiment, I appreciate it. I'm glad I've been afforded this chance, as well.

Even I can make sense sometimes. :P
I don't know enough about apples to name different types like that, but I guess you have a point.
But if you always get the same thing without trying anything new you might miss out on something you like even better than apples! Maybe peaches are your favoritest fruit in the whole world! If all you ate was apples you'd never know!
[Wait, where is she even going with this metaphor anymore? Honestly Rinoa has no idea.]
Really? Because that's what it sounded like to me.
[OH.]
More than two? I didn't know you were a player!
[Please Quistis, keep giving her the wrong impression. It can only get worse.]

You can deny it all you want, but it's totally cute. C-U-T-E.
I know he has, I just wish he'd be a little more open sometimes. I know that's asking a lot, but...
I don't know.
Maybe they were right and this place isn't so bad after all.

Quite a shocking revelation, that is.
Well, it doesn't have to be apples. Different variations in general is what I meant.
I have tried a variety of fruits, but I'd much rather not delve further into this metaphor or my love life, current or prior. [ This is for the better, isn't it. Quistis's taste in men is... well, it's interesting, isn't it? ]
It's not like that, Rinoa. I was interested in someone else, but
I suppose that was just a crush. I couldn't see myself really being involved with him.

Cute...
That's just not something I ever considered myself to be.
I think that he's changing. Squall's already changed. I imagine he'll always be closed off, but given time I think that he'll only change more and for the better.
I do not think this place is all that bad. I'm very grateful to know the people I've met here.

Meanie. :P
Okay okay. Just don't get so caught up on liking apples that you never eat an orange ever again.
Probably a good idea, this conversation is getting kind of weird.
[Though not half so weird as a certain someone who might be a gorilla.]
I guess that makes sense. I've never really thought of you as the crush type, but I guess it's something everyone goes through. So kind of like crushing on someone in a movie but different?

It's okay! People who are too aware of their cuteness can be kind of annoying sometimes if they try to force being cute.
of course i wouldn't want Squall to change too much, then he wouldn't be Squall anymore! That's the last thing I want. Some things I wouldn't trade for anything. Like the way he frowns so seriously when playing triple triad even though it's just a game. Or like how sometimes if I'm careful I can see his eyes soften as he watches you guys, because even though he doesn't really show it very well he really cares about all of you a lot.
For such a tough guy he can be pretty cute.
[Okay gushing about crush over for now.]
It'd be a lot scarier if you weren't here.

There's nothing wrong with getting caught up in apples. Who knows? I could be a one apple only kind of woman. [ She likes him enough that she could see a future between the two of them beyond some casual relationship. Just because it was casual doesn't mean it couldn't last, right? Regardless, this is getting weird. Er. Weirder. ]
I suppose. It was more like finding something in common with them, getting along with them, finding them attractive but... not pursuing anything.

He's an interesting man, that's for certain. I suppose we both get along because of our awkwardness and antisocial behavior.
I think that he shows the best parts of himself when he's with you.
I'd like to bring that out in someone, someday.

I'm glad that you are here, as well.

There's a difference between being a one apple person and only choosing apples without trying any other kind of fruit.
[This conversation is rather surreal. Who started this metaphor again? Oh right, she did. That explains everything.]
Maybe not quite like a movie star then, but I know what you mean.

Sounds about right to me! Though you're not as antisocial as he is. If you were I'd have to find a different dinner buddy.
[She could probably drag him into trying restaurants with her too, but that's not the point.]
You really think so?
I'm sure you will! I know I fight better when you're around. Does that count?
[Because she doesn't want to look like a complete loser in comparison.]

Is it weird to wish everyone else was here too?

I've tried other fruits. Once, maybe twice. I've come to the conclusion that once or twice is enough. [ But Quistis turned it into fruit, didn't she? From books to fruit to... well, they're both a bit strange, aren't they? Makes for interesting stories, at least. ]
Not when there's an option of having something, I suppose.

No, I'm growing use to being more social. I recharge in silence, but I can be rather chatty at times!
I don't mind you two-timing me with other people for dinner. It goes back around to the variety thing, right?
We all fight better when we're together.
It counts.

It is not weird. I found myself wishing everyone was here, as well. There are reasons to want everyone here and reasons to want them to be at home.
We are trapped, but time moves differently, doesn't it?
So if we must be trapped, I would much rather be trapped together.

Well, I guess if that's what makes you happy!
[Nope, the fruit metaphor is Rinoa's fault too. Because comparing Malik to a book wasn't awful enough.]

I think most people need a little alone time to recharge. Even me! [Who typically doesn't like being alone, so that says a lot doesn't it?]
You're encouraging me to be unfaithful? You're breaking my heart. :(

I guess it's just that I don't want to look dumb in front of everyone.
Oh okay, good.

That's how I feel too.
You sum it up just right! If we're going to be trapped, let's be trapped together. :)

I think it might. It's hard to say.

I apologize.
I'll take it back, if you promise to forget I ever suggested such an outlandish thing!

No one wants to look that way in front of anyone. I understand.

If only everyone else were here, as well. I feel like we were only beginning to truly connect outside of the battlefield.
I miss them.

That's why they invented the waiting game.

How do I know you don't want to take the chance to see other people?
Is that what this is about???

Normally I'm not too worried about that sort of thing, but you all looked so cool and calm.
I'll never forget the first time I saw a SeeD charging into battle. It was amazing!

Me too.
Maybe it's selfish of us, but I hope they show up soon.

Is that why? I had no idea.

No! No, of course not. That's not it.

[ There would be a number of run-offs, stuttering, and moments of awkward silence were this not in text. ]

We have had a great deal of training for many years. It's easy to be cool and calm when you've learned how to be.
There's a certain rush from it, I think.

You and I both.

Of course it is. What else could it be for?

Really? Because it sure sounds like it.
It's because of isn't it. Is this because I didn't save you a bite of my desert two weeks ago? I said I was sorry! :(

[Rinoa'd probably be able to pull it off fairly naturally to a certain degree, but she'd end up spoiling the whole thing by giggling at some point.]

I know why, but that didn't stop me from being jealous.
It does kind of get into your veins doesn't it? Like, I still think not fighting is the best way to go when you can, but it was exciting.

I'm going to start making a list of ideas for stuff to do just in case!
[That's all Squall needs. Rinoa to be prepared with a list of places and things to drag him to see.]

Yes, that's it. I'm sorry but I've developed a grudge that I do not think that I will ever be able to let go of.

Despite it being my livelihood, I don't disagree.
I think after we return and all of this is over... We will likely put more emphasis on monsters.
After Lunatic Pandora we'll have our hands full for years.
And rebuilding and picking up the pieces from Galbadia and whatever remains of the old order.
It's... something to look forward to, I think.

[ She wants to say if. If she lives, if she makes it through, if she doesn't die. If they don't die. If, if, if. ]

You should share it with me. I'm not good when it comes to ideas for that sort of thing.
I get flustered and uncomfortable.

Edited 2014-01-23 09:35 (UTC)

Oh no. :( Don't be like that, I promise I'll find a way to make it up to you!

[From goofy to serious in a few seconds. What a pair.]

Do you really think so? After everything that's happened it's a little hard to imagine things ending so quietly.
I guess it says a lot that I think monster hunting is a quiet end to our journey huh.
I hope things go that smoothly. I really do.

[Have they even talked about the S-word yet.]

Well you just pick things that seem like they'd be fun! Kind of like our dinner dates.
You'll do fine, I believe in you!

I will most certainly hold you to that.

I'd like to. It's difficult to gauge how it may or may not end, but I would like to think it will not be as extreme as it could be.
However, I am prepared for the worst, as well.
But I agree, I hope it does.

[ She tries not to think about it as it is. He's managed to mostly dodge the conversation with her and likely doesn't realize that it's always in the back of her mind. They might end up killing one another. He might kill her or she might have to kill him, the latter of which sometimes keeps her awake at night. And he still thinks that he doesn't matter. ]

I see.

You're going to make me regret saying that, aren't you.

I hope you're right.
[If this was Squall she was talking to, she'd admit that the idea of going back actually scares her, but it's not. So since she's still trying to impress Quistis that's the last thing she's going to want to admit.]
With everything we've managed to do, if anyone could get an end like that it's us.

[Meanwhile Rinoa is trying not to bring it up, because she doesn't want to know if her being a sorceress changes anything. And good times were had by all.]

What? Does that sound weird? :(

Perhaps only a touch.

I am usually right, Rinoa. Don't fret over something so simple, alright?
We were drawn together for a reason. Even without GFs, I think we'd find a way.
We'll be fine.
I know it.

[ It might, but she doesn't think it will be something that will make things worse for them. Even if it becomes more difficult for all of them, they'll still overcome it. There's no way that they won't. All of them have to make it through it, together. Losing any single one of them is unacceptable -- Seifer included. ]

No. It sounds simple.
I just don't know how to... it sounds simple, but I don't know how to do that.
The last time I did something like that it wasn't even a date.
I don't think it was, anyway. [ It was. ]

I'm tough! I can handle it.

I didn't listen to you about the robot baby, I won't make that mistake again.
[She doesn't find it all that simple, but if Quistis says so she'll try to believe her.]
Right. We'll be fine.

[That's something they can agree on. They'll all go together and that's all there is to it. Rinoa wouldn't have it any other way either.]

Dates don't have to be that different from things you do with friends!
It's really that simple, I promise.
Maybe you didn't think it was a date, but maybe they thought it was a date?

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